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Making stew
Like
The seringe is ordered
So soon the manic rambling should stop again~
Its
A custom written social frame
Tw
About my opperational sec
Its low, i am aware
My dreams alterted me multiple times
But like i am not doing anything interesting
Like just send some weed
If there is a need for better sec send some stuff
Like i am quite a brat
Like i konw the mantra of only trusting who is involved with something
But like i dont care about the sec for that level, bc i dont even want the infos
I dont care to store sensitive data
If it needs obvuscation / a level where mere encryption is not enough
I dont want to know
Like every unsecured node in a network is a risk, so if there is a need
But like i dont care bout that need
If someone has a need they may
But i don’t wanna get weight i dont need
And anything opperational shouldn’t remain
Like me beeing arround is just acidental
I have no need to see more
Like i just keep where i am not interesting
I like to be able to sleep Soundly
Artist archetype
I am out staring into space not bothered
I am just answering to get the unwanted attention away
Like i am aware but am not really interested
, Like i am obviously curious
But like, i like good sleep
REZZ x Subtronics – Puzzle Box
https://youtu.be/QNFlk2B1ig8
Subtronics – Spacetime (feat. NEVVE)
https://youtu.be/bdpv-wuY9qo
String Theory (Original Mix)
https://youtu.be/r8JyiZ4Wkl4
Like
My perception is calibrated for big social systems
Its like a scope where you look into the distance
And someone really close walks infront of it
If i see anything painful its is perceived with that magnification
Like thats fine if its a big system so everything is far away
But things close
Its like tripping and beeing oversensitive to light of any kind
Like if not needed you recalibrate it
But i currently need it for the project
Like
I was wearing a cap for like a bit
Like with school i was proposed to lead group efforts
But refused and gave it to someone else
It feels the same
Leadership positions do be a lot of responsibility
Like i really just think diapis are comfy
And they help with my ptsd
Bx they a emotional analogy
Its a meter to fill and get emptied again
I will need
To get some weed to calm me down ~
Deya Dova – Myth Of The Cave
https://youtube.com/watch?v=DrMSCEoTfmc&si=hK-df_nM39QpIBBq
Jordan Peterson – The Mystery of DMT and Psilocybin
https://youtube.com/watch?v=Gol5sPM073k&si=dfzaiX-LDV2n6qJo
Terence Mckenna- The DMT Experience
https://youtube.com/watch?v=3Bvi8206lpA&si=vksRKHmNhw2C1wBX
C
Mr Traumatik – DMT
https://youtube.com/watch?v=JBM_9zjSWXw&si=qKV_7oLmlcG4jPtv
Okai
So we were at the diapi thingy
Was fun
Were eating
Also went somewhere mine was when they were younger, was good for them i feel like, to be there again, with me
See things again
was interesting
Like i am usually not that much of a ppl person
Forget my hormones tho
For a bit mine was just petting me while i was shaking
Bc thats my dmt ptsd which comes back without the hormones, in certain places
I start shaking, bc i get waves of fear, from waves of pure understanding
I already had forgotten it existed
Bc the hormones are usually working
Which is good
Like i am not just a self righteous brat
I get hit with understanding at any sign of malificence, without hormones
Like mine was talking to me
And was like
My heart beats faster, my breathing is quicker
And i was like
Yeah thats when you see a bigger block of reality, its physically scary
But ppl were nice, it was quite fun^~^
I am just not that much of a ppl person i feel like
GRiZ x Subtronics – Griztronics II (Another Level)
https://youtu.be/4fNk2Ya_HSA
Currently watching
Bejond journeys end ep 13
I like
Also rewatching made in abyss with mine in general
Water
Filters
Light
Zoning by timeframes