Tsunami J. – Acid [Lyrics x AMV]
https://youtu.be/T1AnBGtqpZk
Synesthesia (Oscilloscope Music)
https://youtu.be/H5NK549Lg1I
The Reason for Almost All Mental Illnesses – Prof. Jordan Peterson
https://youtu.be/OW_zpi2hmI4
Jordan Peterson – Controversial Facts about IQ
https://youtu.be/jSo5v5t4OQM
Like
Its like
These ppl building streets
They do in summer, bc winter is not good for that
Doing things after the seringe is x times as productive as going in circles as currently
Antifragility, sometimes doing nothing is the best option you have
Like i use beeing lazy as a placeholder when i am too lazy to explain the concept
Like capitalisms always on, is not the peak of productivity
I will get a energy to try to get me to move
But usually there is not much to make me move at end cycle
4 days
Those are all setting environment but not adressing the actual issue
Like those work, but the ptsd will still be there and coming back
I wanna know where the core pattern is i need to change
I am stupi
The trans meds solve it for me~
Nevermind
Now
I am way more confident
In looking for ppl to chill with
Bc i know what expectations i can reinforce and which deny
Like i will no guys but yes girls on everything sexual
Like my humor is kinky
But if i see someone actually stepping lines
I know who to politely decline
I feel a lot better
Like we talked about them beeing possibly ace
Bc both is okai and valid
If they want sex or not they are still mine
But if they are ace i still have sexual needs and urges
So i need to ask the question of
Should i see other ppl to satisfy that need
Guys definitely not
Me getting taken by someone else is no
Which i agree, bc i am kinda allergic to guys
Girls are okai tho
Like i have a interest in that from another perspective
Bc i actually have no idea how my sex works anymore
I would like to find a girl and have her try to explain to me how sex works as a girl n stuff
Bc obv they have more experience in that
Like i need someone to practically show me, bc i cant figure it out, or havent yet
Like if its not adressed it would always cause issues in the background
If i like have a need but my partner has that just slightly
That would be a long term threat to me and mine staying together, which needs to be adressed before it takes roots
With this they are still emotional not completely down
And i get the underlying need filled
Like my top priority is mines emotional state and not just taking what i want without regard , but them beeing still sane
Like we will see how that develops
But thats a good compromise
Like other girls are okai
Like i cant physically f anyone anymore anyways
I asked them what makes them more emotional trouble
Me having a emotional connection to someone or beeing physically intimate
In general guys are more jelly for physical and girls more emotional
Or replace genders with testo and e
But i still need to ask her if that is actually how she feels
Like i will not go out looking for someone rn
But i finally know where my borders are
That makes it easier for me to not do things which hurt mine
If i want more sex but they just don’t have more interest, i dont push them, i know which way a solution would be
They get some rest from me needing to satisfy my itch
I hope that will give them more space to be comfy and figure out without pressure, how much sexual attention they need and want
Me and mine
Had a talk
Btw
I also grabbed into the unspoken to get something out they said
They said they dont believe in what i am doing with the project,like in the unspoken
I was so apalled i grabbed it and pulled it out
Source (feat. Greydon Square)
https://youtu.be/eLmvdU7cwCw
Earthlings
https://youtu.be/D1IWHOjMVi4
r/ACCCEEEEE – Asexual Succubus GF ๐ณ
https://youtube.com/watch?v=3479nYR90hk&si=k6pncntiZnvO4a_T
Thank you, just what i needed
Heres the explanation what ace is in memes
I ak soaying mean
Things i appologize
Like kitten
I am not every judging you for anything
I am watching for you to jump over your shadow and actually start living
Thats what i am waiting for
Like
I can’t just go and f other ppl
I could feel their little heart breaking along with mine
If then that’s something we need to do together
But mine has the sex drive of a g damn flowervase
Like lets see what happens when they get hormones ~
Like my kitten i love you truly, but like u know
Aaaaaaaaaaqqqqqqqqaaaaaq end of rave.
Like
I am actually really happy with mine, she is a great person and makes great progress in her life
She is doing great and i couldn’t meet a kinder person
I love her dearly and truthfully
But she barks at everything like i do, without hormones
Like if i have the seringe, they annoy me
Without we both annoy each other
Like i am here bc i know what the issue is, bc i have the same, and then they a lot less buzzing and barking at everything
Like they are the most kind person ever
And i know if the hormones can fix my stuff
Then she will be such a even more beautiful soul
Girl i wanna actually see you grow and thrive as a person
So go and thrive already
Why
Why
Do i even try to get something done at the end of the cycle ~
Btw
Mine seemed quite strained yesterday
My general life seems to irritate them a bit
Like they are getting their license etc
Like it feels like to me
When i locked myself out and just like did whatever i did
That kinda triggered a control issue
Bc they are checking if they can
Like if we fight physically, can i overpower you
But in general
And i may have made myself too out of reach
Maybe betrayal, bc the thaught they knew me and then i do something they didn’t expect
I think behind whatever it is, is the fear of loosing me
Bc they said in relation to something
Then i am not the right person for you
And i didnt know how to respond
But that smells like fear of loosing
If i tell you i will go, do you care, am i important to you?
Its probably that i can just like that suddenly move into a different direction
Maybe they were worried about me
Yes, yes i do, else i wouldn’t live with you stupi
May be general life thats stressing them too
But yesterday they were really different
Like i feel like
Without the hormones we annoy each other quite a lot
But with it calm again
Like i have the calm of a sage, i am getting thrown into hell and feathered into heaven on a monthly cycle
Like my stress tolerance may be other ppls insanity
Like i am a sub
I am waiting for them to give me rules and tell me what to do
But they just never do
They try and then go,. Nah joke
While i was already happily obliging
They dont pull threw and it frustrates me
Like i feel like they are cautious about giving me rules, bc they dont know if they can contain me if i bite in response
Which no, probably not
But theres no need to, i am giving them the leash, they can tie me up
Like my skillset makes many things possible
So i really enjoy being restricted
Bc it limits my options and gives me peace of mind
But they just won’t restrict me!
Like if you are trying to match, do the power levels match
Obv not
But i said that before me finding someone on the same frequency with the same amplitude is rare af
Like i am avoiding to say it
But if someone on that level is interested
They will just pick mine up and put them to the side while mine is convinced its the best thing for them
Like i keep the structure open so i dont loose them if something like that should happen
Like such ppl can apply ideologys and idea systems like they see fit
They can get it without crossing any moral borders
Mine is not even perceived as a threat
Like they probably also offer them partner
Like if i know the statistics, they do too
Like nono i will not betray them, its not even a argument on that skill level
I mean i will always support mine as dearly as possible
But like if something with interest ever should show up, the scales are quite clear
Like i am deeply aware of it, and i am ignoring it, focusing on beeing with mine
Bc mine is what i picked and they mine
And i stay loyal to them
Like they so sexually repressed ~
I wont say why but it odd
Bc their mum is making sexual jokes, bc i am obv also posing how sexually open i am
And everyone meets mine like, they are basically ace
No interest in sex, like not really
More they are scared of it
, of themselves
Like i am a kinky kitty,
Tie me up and fuck me already
Like i am waiting for them to grow as a person and come up here already, instead of lamenting the differences
Girl we get invited to the sex parties everyone else wants to go to
And do nothing there
Are you wasting your youth on purpose?
Like i am
So
Anno
Yed by it, bc i usually am understanding etc, its their choice etc, but it drives me crazy
Are y
Ou
Alive or not, do you want to experience or not, whats this indicicion aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa