I picked some songs aimed at a female demographic

And 1 specifically satisfying the providing need

I will later take hormones and turn the mental filter off which keep me from confusing

Meaning the paradoxical relationship where you feel like someone speaks directly to you and only you

And then i test how my responses change

Like i have changed those port settings

https://youtube.com/watch?v=geKlJbCpEdw&si=MDze1HNHyDACpKFh

https://youtube.com/watch?v=ooqb04OVwGY&si=7MYOJPu9b5wWY_mj

https://youtube.com/watch?v=jFEr9i2Z-WI&si=cSQXi30fTNLlJX5G

The music she shared

Like i now get the female appeal to the overly manly songs

Like i still prefer females

But i get the appeal

I will need to look at some songs and see how i react

Like i need to watch spice and wolf again

Bc. Its my refference Media

Bc there i first noticed it

That my perception switched from following the male character

To following the female one

There is another thing we invited to

But its in a city with expensive af hotels

Like we’ll see if we can organize that~

Her mum was nice enaugh to share some music, i will have to try something

Also i feel like i am causing mine some cognitive dissonance

I will take the seringe tomorrow

Projekt stays on 10th

I feel like

I made some guys really horny

Bc they hate my guts

And the only ways to get me to submit would be physically

But jusst a feeling, like i see you guys

I see

Dragons mostly eep

That makes sense

I already have that behavior pattern

Interesting

I dont know what to do with that

But like there is no concern to overstep

I would prefer to use that to help ppl

Th3 interaction is no worry

And i am batch rewriting the general social environment you use as a refference point to compare it to

Like both sides are already adjusted

I am not that worried about it getting mentioned

I am temporally distorting from the past and spacially distorting the environment your standing on

And i have the psychological short range tools

Like i am lost in the moment zoning out, drifting in reality

Like i am not worried in the slightest

All i am doing is helping ppl if asked and chilling in the now

And i have the tools which are not yet in the cultural inventory, so i am also distorting the future

Like just Vibing

Cat is still alive and well^~^

Me and the mum of mine

Were driving today

And she mentioned diapies in a different context

And there was a bit of silence

Like you can just mention things

Its just that there is usually no reason to do it

Like its a concious high level joke of contrasting the diapis against my skillset

Among other things

Like i have nothing to say about it

I assume If someone has a question they will ask

Like i dont randomly start talking about diapies, thats impolite

But like its not a secret

I am perfectly happy with ppl mentioning it and knowing

I just usually have nothing to say about it

Like i am wearing underwear, i dont start telling ppl about it randomly

Like maybe if i found some cute ones, but like u get me

Like nono there is no tripwire there

I just let ppl choose themselves, how deeply they want to know about things

I will give someone telling me about how they draw patterns on their bathroom tiles with their period blood

The same kind of attention as someone telling about the shoes they got

In both instances i am probably not listening but listening

Like i would be interested which patterns

But like my borders are just dependent on the current persona

But there is like nothing to overstep

Btw that was a random example, no one has told me such a thing

Only thing is, things will get more competent

The silly is infront

The more you go deeper the more everything is self explanatory

The deeper you go the less is there to say

Like nono i have calculated in the cognitive dissonance between me beeing arround in persona in relation to you

And you knowing about the blog, but trying to figure out how that relates

Like its all accounted for already

There is just usually no reason for me to mention it

Its just creeps ppl out when you tell them for no reason

Like i am not playing games, i am already done with the game

I was done years before you encountered the diapis in relation to me, while i was choosing to take on the habbit

I trouble shooted it out back then already

And am chilling

I am just Vibing

Drifting in the streams of existence

Love lia

Like what i wanted to say is

Don’t worry about it

Its not a secret

You are accepted by default

But i doubt you wanna talk about diapis

https://youtube.com/watch?v=1PAdHefP7O4&si=TpA2GBUDJN3WHxU2

Stopping cigarettes i dont like

I want smoking

Aaaaaa

https://youtube.com/watch?v=B6C9OzaLGfg&si=TIh5PdYQphf-ZebO

https://youtube.com/watch?v=IbZXgW2YSvk&si=nt0j-v4xENV6r454

https://youtube.com/watch?v=O9TJLX3WAmg&si=8SoaUTIJm8rHsQi9

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