Is asking my dad for the car
Like i will use it, to go shopping, bc i planned that anyways when i already got it, bc water is heavy to transport
Like if i knew
But i didnt
So idk
I need to move and then things just relate to me
Like if i borrow someone’s car, or like something socially
Like if we don’t like each other, we don’t have to meet again
But that doesn’t work for family
Like i need a better paying job or like something
Like i put myself exactly at break even with the apartment
To make myself move
But now i am in a situation where i have to do something ~
Like as intended, but still ๐
Like ppl get neurotic with me
Bc like if you are trying to control things, like i am a nightmare
Bc my urgency is my ability to do things
We can transfer data instantly, the postal service is 1-3 days
Like 99% of things i can just send, or get send
Like i go on random walks at 4 at night,
As a parent you would get so frustrated and loose after like 2 days with me
But like its completely fine for me
Like i do quite well without too much structure
But,, slower,, ppl get reeeealy nervous when you use less structure, bc like they reeeealy need that
Like its a balancing of structure and light
But like i am living asynchronously to the rest of the world, and am doing good with it, like i get up at like 14 meaning 2pm
Work and am then awake at night
Like a controlling person will get a heart attack trying to apply rules of behavior onto a constantly moving target
Like i got everything i need, besides a bathtub and a better way to make money
Like i have been writing with kyla, i feel quite good in that regard
I like them, like there is some small stuff, but like they are working on it
Like i can work with such a person, i am happy with that
Like i got another month or so then i go get a appartement
Like i got a letter i dont like, so i will have to investigate that
Like i think its something i already solved, but i will have to talk to them on Monday
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