I feel like my approach was wrong, and the part i wanted to exchange, had just the surrounding systems released
And thats quite good, bc i was wrong
I should not destroy a old part of me like that
I should make a Coincidentia Oppositorum
You dont destroy old books, you care for them and make new knowledge with what you have learnt from them
The thing is, i am so big, i cant manage all of that, thats also why my emotional systems cant handle that
The idea is to unify all of the things, but not damage them and synthesise a new structure that is all of the structures, but its own, like a tree that keeps growing
I will do something i fear to death, but i will explain some other time