Okai

If i were to

Chill with a girl

I need to know my scedual

Currently i have like time once a month or something

Like almost every weekend is something

Like i have someone i asked to chill with ,but i just did not find the time yet

Like the pol will solve that

If 1 main activity falls away, i can put socials in there

Btw i talked wih mine about what they can actually do

Bc there were stuck mentally

But they got out of it

Like they did not assume that they have a license soon to drive a car etc

Like they assumed they had to carry me

Like nah, they plan for them

I am fine

I just need to decide what i actually want to do

And then i live doing that

Like ill find a job if neccecary

But i will not start a carreer

I know i can make money without monthly limit

Like its a option for survival, but certainly not a permanent option

Like i would prefer the other thing, bc i will end up in a simular situation

But if i go the route over a job i will be so annoyed by working that i probably wont end with trying to help ppl

Ill just map the psychological points of acess of some group and crowbar my way in

Bc i am annoyed by working ,so if thats whats in my way to get out of it

Id prefer the other thing~

Like i have major ptsd on school and job

I can do it but i wont like beeing there in any way

Like the advice of ,just get a job, works

But whoever suggests that to me will pay with their childrens future for having to be there

I like the other more

However, like so they dont need to plan for that,like thats my internals of solving that

One of those it will be

And money will come

Ah man

I have such good friends

I will hate dissapointing them like that

Like i will just put the code up and light the entire blog on fire in case i go that route

So like they cant acctually see whats going on~

I need to take my hormones~