Why
Do i even try to get something done at the end of the cycle ~
Btw
Mine seemed quite strained yesterday
My general life seems to irritate them a bit
Like they are getting their license etc
Like it feels like to me
When i locked myself out and just like did whatever i did
That kinda triggered a control issue
Bc they are checking if they can
Like if we fight physically, can i overpower you
But in general
And i may have made myself too out of reach
Maybe betrayal, bc the thaught they knew me and then i do something they didn’t expect
I think behind whatever it is, is the fear of loosing me
Bc they said in relation to something
Then i am not the right person for you
And i didnt know how to respond
But that smells like fear of loosing
If i tell you i will go, do you care, am i important to you?
Its probably that i can just like that suddenly move into a different direction
Maybe they were worried about me
Yes, yes i do, else i wouldn’t live with you stupi
May be general life thats stressing them too
But yesterday they were really different
Like i feel like
Without the hormones we annoy each other quite a lot
But with it calm again
Like i have the calm of a sage, i am getting thrown into hell and feathered into heaven on a monthly cycle
Like my stress tolerance may be other ppls insanity
Like i am a sub
I am waiting for them to give me rules and tell me what to do
But they just never do
They try and then go,. Nah joke
While i was already happily obliging
They dont pull threw and it frustrates me
Like i feel like they are cautious about giving me rules, bc they dont know if they can contain me if i bite in response
Which no, probably not
But theres no need to, i am giving them the leash, they can tie me up
Like my skillset makes many things possible
So i really enjoy being restricted
Bc it limits my options and gives me peace of mind
But they just won’t restrict me!
Like if you are trying to match, do the power levels match
Obv not
But i said that before me finding someone on the same frequency with the same amplitude is rare af
Like i am avoiding to say it
But if someone on that level is interested
They will just pick mine up and put them to the side while mine is convinced its the best thing for them
Like i keep the structure open so i dont loose them if something like that should happen
Like such ppl can apply ideologys and idea systems like they see fit
They can get it without crossing any moral borders
Mine is not even perceived as a threat
Like they probably also offer them partner
Like if i know the statistics, they do too
Like nono i will not betray them, its not even a argument on that skill level
I mean i will always support mine as dearly as possible
But like if something with interest ever should show up, the scales are quite clear
Like i am deeply aware of it, and i am ignoring it, focusing on beeing with mine
Bc mine is what i picked and they mine
And i stay loyal to them
Like they so sexually repressed ~
I wont say why but it odd
Bc their mum is making sexual jokes, bc i am obv also posing how sexually open i am
And everyone meets mine like, they are basically ace
No interest in sex, like not really
More they are scared of it
, of themselves
Like i am a kinky kitty,
Tie me up and fuck me already
Like i am waiting for them to grow as a person and come up here already, instead of lamenting the differences
Girl we get invited to the sex parties everyone else wants to go to
And do nothing there
Are you wasting your youth on purpose?
Like i am
So
Anno
Yed by it, bc i usually am understanding etc, its their choice etc, but it drives me crazy
Are y
Ou
Alive or not, do you want to experience or not, whats this indicicion aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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