Btw

Why i put so much emphasis on the furry thing when slipping into mania

Its bc thats the social peer group slot

If you replace furry with your country it makes sense

Like i put the furry thing thete, exactly bc it looks funny there

Bc its one of the view groups which goes, nah, just fluffy, you are overinterpreting

But under stress i feel like it defaults to putting weight on the group

Like some, i am in trouble, i should find the others

Kinda thing

Like as a German we dont have much of a national identity in this generation

Pride for your country was dialed back after the last wars

The country is just not a thing as in other countries

So i can just place something else there

Which allerts me to whats going on

If i am raving about the social group, i probably fell over that tripwire, bc my behavior makes no sense

If i were just proud to be living where i do

Like that looks fine psychologically

Like i will not give a country access like that again if i can avoid it

Best thing which may happen is i get sent to die

I assume

I certainly notice it there all the time, like its my watch point, and i know why its is there, and what it triggering means