Like

I worked at a warehouse for like 6 months

I had some time

Like i made lists with the best way to kill myself

Take it as samurai meditating on death, or boredness

Like i have decided

If i kill myself i want heroin

Nothing else

Like thing is with like shooting yourself

There is a likelihood of waking up again, and then dying

Like you got paralized, out, adrenalin, awake! Dead