Like

I am competent enaugh so its basically not noticable, but a impuls is a impuls

Its by definition not under my control

Like usually it is tamed

But in this constellation it its barely, bc i lack the capacity for it

Its like with a functional addict

There are ppl livint their whole lifes, for instance taking heroine, and no one ever notices

Just bc they are generally still as functional as everyone else

Like you could say it’s impulse control, but i already know which cluster it is, its not 1 symptom, its a array of related symptoms all going back to the transgender thing, and the hormones seem the only thing which actually in practice fixes it

But i will try to like post less down things now~