Also

I am slowly getting less air as the cycle progresses, meaning i am slowly choking

So my brain gets less air

Like that is the improvement, that i have somewhere to fall back into

Before that, that state was just standard

And now i switch to thing actually working, but am in the gradient inbetween, by time, in which cyclical changes happen,

Bc like i am growing new body parts and such, which needs time

Like everything is better,

I am still choking half the month

Like i am as stable as you would expect by circumstance

But like its notable that there is a difference ~

Like better as ever, great to have met a new person