From behind and give you a hush tip on your back with some value
And ppl automatically assume they need to give something in return
Which makes sense if you do deals and not gifts
Like they leave open who it actually was and leave you to fill in the blanks on the random person who shows up next
And by that you are automatically in a contract by them using a proxy
Like you accepted the info didn’t you
But its obvious that no, actually they randomly gave it to you and started making subtle demands
Thing is, they are so subliminal that it always comes threw the unconscious backchannel which always seems like some secret organization
Like ppl are not used to those channels beeing used anymore
Like the mafia operates the same way
Bc they know over 3 corners that person needs help, but for the person they come out of nowhere
Lemme help you out, mind if you do me a favor too?
Bring this random suitcase with documents somewhere
And then they just keep showing up
In my case i was just sitting there like
Yeah i know, much appreciated, see u round
Like they chilling in boredom entrapped in the same nets they offer
Like control pyramid n fluff
But like if someone already greets them in understanding, why bother
They leave me and i dont unnecessarily comment on their fluff
Like its mutual, i dont even wanna know, i can read your emotions, cya
Like there are plenty of ppl arround
We are luckily not in the same territory
Like i am sure they do a lot of good too
But i dont wanna know
Life is too short to get into unnecessary conflicts like that
Btw i am not saying the open ai ppl are
I am just randomly contemplating things while watching anime
Like i had the foresight to settle with a structure with a myth which doest want anything from me
I dont have to fight the class structure or the rich or anything
Like i was consciously filling that slot for the cultural need of group belonging
Bc if i dont, it will be filled with something i may not want
Like I’ll put in the registration for this apartment
And then i have officially moved
And I’ll do my best to never mention such things again and forget all of it
Btw that is approved now
Like generally remove a lot of things from my mindframe and just be living as a random girl doing a project to help ppl
Like i have some thing i still need to say, which i said i would
No, i haven’t forgotten, i am just anxious and wait till i get the feeling which tells me, that its now the time to do that
Like i have to tell some bad things i did
And i said id say something about my dad and parents n fluff
Like i said a lot, but i also said id give a final statement, bc nothing is ever simple for some reason
Its the hormones, with the meds everything is simple.
Its 2 weeks after the seringe now btw
See any big changes in behavior? Yes
But there is a lot of things i assume as standard known facts, which are probably not
And fundamentally change the meaning of things
Like its a problem of information degregation, if i say something, the chance that you understand me is quite small
Ontop of that language can be read in multiple ways, i have written paragraphs, to read them again, and seeing they say something completely different, bc my setting comas was not given and you can read the sentence in 3 different ways
Like read the same book with your partner, and discuss it, they will have basically read a different book
Like i mean everything i say, always. But what i mean is actually not obvious
Usually i just settle for true enaugh
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